Oh God.. Im sorry :(

O Allah..

it hurts when i have to let go the things i really love..
it hurts when i have to lose something that i really want..
it hurts, Allah…
it hurts..
😥
 
 
but believe me, O Allah..
i will feel hurt most when i know that i have hurt You..
it hurt most, Allah..
believe me..
believe me….
😥
 
 
I realize that i can never live without Your mercy..
I realize that i can never smile without the concious that You are pleased with me..
I realize that i can never lead my life if You are unhappy with me..
 
I am sorry..
I am really really sorry..
For i have neglected You for long time..
For i have loved others more than i should love You..
For i have prioritized others more than i should..
😥
 
 
Even then…
You still gives me food to eat.. when i am not supposed to eat what i shouldnt eat
You still gives me eyes to see.. when i am not supposed to see what i shouldnt see
You still gives me ears to hear.. when i am not supposed to hear what i shouldnt hear
You still gives me skin to touch.. when i am not supposed to touch what i shouldnt touch
You still give the air im breathing now.. when i have done tonnes of mistake..
 
 
How can someone not fall for You??
You are very nice Allah..
You are very kind Allah..
You are great Allah..
 
 
but i forget..
im so occupied with this world..
im so busy with my life..
im so so so busy about myself..
😥
 
 
I can never forgive  myself if this were to happen again..
how can i do that to You Allah…
im such an arrogant slave..
im not thankful to You…
i feel embarrased Allah..
im embarrased…
 
 
You dont let me to see him..
but please Allah…
let that subsitute with my meeting with You one day…
thats my only wish…
 
 
Destinasi Cinta 
Menyingkap tirai hati
Mengintai keampunan
Di halaman subur rahmatMu, Tuhan
Tiap jejak nan bertapak
Debu kejahilan
Akan ku jirus dengan madu keimanan
Tak ternilai airmata dengan permata
Yang bisa memadamkan api neraka
Andai benar mengalir dari nasuha nurani
Tak kan berpaling pada palsu duniawi
Destinasi cinta yang ku cari
Sebenarnya terlalu hampir
Hanya kabur kerana dosa di dalam hati
Telah ku redah daerah cinta
Yang lahir dari wadah yang alpa
Tiada tenang ku temui
Hanya kecewa menyelubungi
Ku gelintar segenap maya
Dambakan sebutir hakikat
Untuk ku semai menjadi sepohon makrifat
Moga dapat ku berteduh di rendang kasihMu
Namun ranjaunya tidak akan sunyi
Selagi denyut nadi belum berhenti
Durjana syaitan kan cuba menodai
Segumpal darah bernama hati
Destinasi cinta Ilahi
Lestarikan wadi kalbuku, oh Tuhanku
Leraikan aku dari pautan nafsu
Biarpun sukar bagiku melamar redha-Mu
Namun masihku mengharap ampunan-Mu
Wahai Tuhanku.. Ya Allah…

 

 

 

 

 

Biarpun sukar bagiku melamar redhaMu..
namun masihku mengharap ampunanMu…

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