What I need

Buying Ipad is my want. Saving that money for haj is what I need.

Buying new dresses is my want. Buying quality food for Mama and Abah is what I need.

Taking cab to work is my want. Saving that money for my Mama’s and Abah’s medication is what I need.

Listening to songs all the time is my want. Reading qur’an and selawat is what I need.

Eating out with friends always is my want. Spending time with Mama and Abah is what I need.

Spending time on iphone is my want. Helping with house chores is what I need.

Lazing around in house is my want. Cleaning the house and washing the dishes is what I need.

Going out for window shopping is my want. Buying mama and abah new clothes is what I need.

May Allah make me the last person to be with Mama and Abah til their last breath.

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Help me to decide

Why should I grieve because of a thorn?
Once it had made laughter known to me.
Whatever you lost through the stroke of destiny,
know it was to save you from adversity.
One small affliction keeps off greater afflictions;
one small loss prevents greater losses.

-Rumi

I dont know much. I have been comforting myself to accept things. Till now, im struggling still. Fighting the battle within. Trying to rationalize to myself. “God knows best”…

 

Sometimes i wonder why am i so weak, sensitive and emotional over matters. Is it just me or it’s a natural feelings and emotions to feel so? Haiz.. God, life is so hard. I just need You to be strong. I fall so many times and i knw i will fall again.. Make me stand. Make me strong and increase my endurance. I need to relax. To feel Your love..

Future is the unseen world. I will never know what would happen. I anticipate too much in life. I think too much. Why does the confidence fade when i need it? Really…

Deep down my heart. I really love You. I ever compromised my love for You. And that was a big and catasrrophic mistake. Oh dear… let not that happen again.. I just cant imagine living here in this world knowing that You are not pleased with me..

She is very far from me. He left me. And i realize i have no one to talk to when i need most. Not even my parents..  Only then i think and really feel You are so closed to me. I feel Your presence. I know You see me crying and begging in front of you. Your presence comforts me even when i dont say a word..

Now that i have to decide. I need You to help me to decide. What may seem nice and good to me would not necessary be so. You know best. I know this is a major decision to make. And i cant move on without Your consent. Please give indication- whether it is bad or good. I will accept.

 

Thank You God =)

I am not crying because of the bill….

Taken from qisas.com

A man reached 70 years of age and he faced a disease; he could not urinate. The doctors informed him that he was in need of an operation to cure this disease. He agreed to have the operation done as the problem was giving him much pain for days.

 

When the operation was completed, his doctor gave him the bill which covered all the costs. The old man looked at the bill and started to cry. Upon seeing this the doctor told him that if the cost was too high then they could make some other arrangements. The old man said “I am not crying because of the money but I am crying because Allah let me urinate for 70 years and He never sent me a bill.”

 

…and if you try to count the blessings of Allah, never will you be able to count them…

 

Surah Ibrahim Allah states that the servants are never able to count His blessings, let alone thank Him duly for them.

 

In Sahih Al-Bukhari it is recorded that the Messenger of Allah( Peace and blessings be upon him) used to supplicate;

 

«اللَّهُمَّ لَكَ الْحَمْدُ غَيْرَ مَكْفِيَ وَلَا مُوَدَّعٍ وَلَا مُسْتَغْنًى عَنْهُ رَبَّنَا»

 O Allah ! All praise is due to You, without being able to sufficiently thank You, nor ever wish to be cutoff from You, nor ever feeling rich from relying on You; our Lord!

 

 It was reported that Prophet Dawud peace be upon him, used to say in his supplication, “O Lord! How can I ever duly thank You, when my thanking You is also a favor from You to me’’ Allah the Exalted answered him, “Now, you have thanked Me sufficiently, O Dawud,’’ meaning, `when you admitted that you will never be able to duly thank Me.’

 

Tafsir Ibn Kathir

 

ps: we tend to overlook things. we neglect Allah most of the time. We rarely thank Him. Without His blessing, we can never even breathe..

 Oh dear Allah… forgive us 😦

Oh God.. Im sorry :(

O Allah..

it hurts when i have to let go the things i really love..
it hurts when i have to lose something that i really want..
it hurts, Allah…
it hurts..
😥
 
 
but believe me, O Allah..
i will feel hurt most when i know that i have hurt You..
it hurt most, Allah..
believe me..
believe me….
😥
 
 
I realize that i can never live without Your mercy..
I realize that i can never smile without the concious that You are pleased with me..
I realize that i can never lead my life if You are unhappy with me..
 
I am sorry..
I am really really sorry..
For i have neglected You for long time..
For i have loved others more than i should love You..
For i have prioritized others more than i should..
😥
 
 
Even then…
You still gives me food to eat.. when i am not supposed to eat what i shouldnt eat
You still gives me eyes to see.. when i am not supposed to see what i shouldnt see
You still gives me ears to hear.. when i am not supposed to hear what i shouldnt hear
You still gives me skin to touch.. when i am not supposed to touch what i shouldnt touch
You still give the air im breathing now.. when i have done tonnes of mistake..
 
 
How can someone not fall for You??
You are very nice Allah..
You are very kind Allah..
You are great Allah..
 
 
but i forget..
im so occupied with this world..
im so busy with my life..
im so so so busy about myself..
😥
 
 
I can never forgive  myself if this were to happen again..
how can i do that to You Allah…
im such an arrogant slave..
im not thankful to You…
i feel embarrased Allah..
im embarrased…
 
 
You dont let me to see him..
but please Allah…
let that subsitute with my meeting with You one day…
thats my only wish…
 
 
Destinasi Cinta 
Menyingkap tirai hati
Mengintai keampunan
Di halaman subur rahmatMu, Tuhan
Tiap jejak nan bertapak
Debu kejahilan
Akan ku jirus dengan madu keimanan
Tak ternilai airmata dengan permata
Yang bisa memadamkan api neraka
Andai benar mengalir dari nasuha nurani
Tak kan berpaling pada palsu duniawi
Destinasi cinta yang ku cari
Sebenarnya terlalu hampir
Hanya kabur kerana dosa di dalam hati
Telah ku redah daerah cinta
Yang lahir dari wadah yang alpa
Tiada tenang ku temui
Hanya kecewa menyelubungi
Ku gelintar segenap maya
Dambakan sebutir hakikat
Untuk ku semai menjadi sepohon makrifat
Moga dapat ku berteduh di rendang kasihMu
Namun ranjaunya tidak akan sunyi
Selagi denyut nadi belum berhenti
Durjana syaitan kan cuba menodai
Segumpal darah bernama hati
Destinasi cinta Ilahi
Lestarikan wadi kalbuku, oh Tuhanku
Leraikan aku dari pautan nafsu
Biarpun sukar bagiku melamar redha-Mu
Namun masihku mengharap ampunan-Mu
Wahai Tuhanku.. Ya Allah…

 

 

 

 

 

Biarpun sukar bagiku melamar redhaMu..
namun masihku mengharap ampunanMu…

Wake up for Fajr Salah

Wake up 4 Fajr Salah

A man woke up early in order to pray the Fajr Prayer
 at the masjid. He got dressed, made his ablution and was on his way to the masjid. On his way to the masjid, the man fell and his clothes got dirty.

He got up, brushed himself off, and headed home. At home, he changed his clothes, made his ablution, and was, again, on his way to the masjid.

On his way to the masjid, he fell again and at the same spot! He, again, got up, brushed himself off and headed home. At home he, once again, changed his clothes, made his ablution and was on his way to the masjid.

On his way to the masjid, he met a man holding a lamp. He asked the man of his identity and the man replied I saw you fall twice on your way to the masjid, so I brought a lamp so I can light your way.’ The first man thanked him profusively and the two where on their way to the masjid.

Once at the masjid, the first man asked the man with the lamp to come in and pray Fajr with him. The second man refused. The first man asked him a couple more times and, again, the answer was the same. The first man asked him why he did not wish to come in and pray. The man replied,
‘I am Satan (devil/evil)’

The man was shocked at this reply. Satan went on to explain, ‘I saw you on your way to the masjid and it was I who made you fall. When you went home, cleaned yourself and went back on your way to the masjid, Allah forgave all of your sins.
I made you fall a second time, and even that did not encourage you to stay home, but rather, you went back on your way to the masjid.
Because of that, Allah forgave all the sins of the people of your household .

I was AFRAID if i made you fall one more time, then Allah will forgive the sins of the people of your village , so i made sure that you reached the masjid safely!’

So do not let Satan benefit from his actions. Do not put off a good that you intended to do as you never know how much reward you might receive from the hardships you encounter while trying to achieve that good.

Cinta anta anti @_@

DI PETIK DARI MAJALAH I,KELUARAN FEBRUARI 2006,OLEH USTAZ MASZLEE MALIK…

‘CINTA ANTA & ANTI…’

Cinta Remaja Dakwah.

Sebagai seorang pensyarah di IPT yang bergelar ustaz, penulis mempunyai
peluang yang menarik untuk bercampur dengan para pelajar yang menempuh zaman
muda belia mereka. Pelbagai masalah, isu dan juga pengalaman yang mereka
bawa untuk dibincangkan. Antara perkara yang sering dibawa berbincang ialah
persoalan cinta. Alaf yang serba unik telah menyaksikan bagaimana para
remaja dan belia dakwah tidak dapat lari dari fenomena cinta. Menariknya,
cinta yang mereka alami ini telah di”Islamik”kan seperti mana bank-bank,
institusi-institusi kewangan lain diislamkan. Maka timbullah istilah “Cinta
ukhwah”. Ayat-ayat dan hadis-hadis sering dijadikan alat untuk
menjustifikasikan apa yang dilakukan. Menarik lagi gejala ini menular di
kalangan mereka yang berkopiah, berserban, bertudung litup, naqib-naqibah
usrah dan mereka yang menggunakan ganti nama “ana – anta dan ana – anti”.

Sms,Yahoo Messenger, email dan lain-lain kemudahan perhubungan era ICT telah
menjadi penghubung utama cinta “anta-anti” ini. Ia lebih selamat, kerana
tidak perlu berdating seperti pasangan yang tidak Islamik. Tidak perlu
membazir tambang teksi, tambang bas dan juga membazir membeli kertas kajang
berbau wangi dan dakwat yang berwarna-warni seperti mana halnya anak-anak
muda lain yang jauh dari arus kebangkitan Islam. Bermula dengan kata-kata
tazkirah, berakhir dengan ikon senyuman, teddy bear dan kadang-kadang gambar
wanita bertudung.

Malah ada yang menjadikan kehadiran di seminar-seminar, kursus-kursus dan
juga wacana-wacana ilmiah sebagai peluang untuk berjumpa
. Bagi yang aktif
berpersatuan pula, mesyuarat-mesyuarat dan aktiviti-aktiviti persatuan
sering menjadi medan pelepas rindu. Alahai…kreatif betul anak-anak muda
dakwah alaf baru ini.

Fenomena yang berlaku ini dimeriahkan dan dikosmetikkan lagi oleh
nasyid-nasyid Melayu yang berpaksikan cinta muda-mudi. Klip-klip video
nasyid pun, tajuk-tajuk yang bombastik berbau cinta asmara. Hakikatnya,
fenomena cinta “anta-anti” ini semakin ketara dan semakin rancak. Ada yang
berakhir dengan perkahwinan, dan ada juga yang kecewa di pertengahan jalan,
dan tidak kurang juga yang telah menjerumuskan kedua-dua pasangan ke lembah
maksiat. wal’iyadhubillah…

 

Salah Faham ukhwah fillah


Teringat juga penulis kepada satu fenomena apabila seorang siswi datang
mengadu dia diusik oleh Pak Lebai. Bukan sekadar sms, kad ucapan hari lahir,
kad hari raya, malah sejambak bunga ros di hari lahir juga telah dikirimkan
oleh Pak Lebai tersebut.Tidak tahulah penulis apakah tanggapan masyarakat
terhadap fenomena seumpama ini. Yang pasti di setiap kad, sms dan di
jambangan bunga tersebut terukir kata-kata “ukhwah fillah kekal
abadi..”.sekali lagi makna ukhwah disalah gunakan.

Satu kes yang lain pula, seorang siswa meluahkan kekecewaannya apabila
dihampakan oleh seorang siswi yang satu “jemaah” dengannya. Beliau tidak
sangka setelah berpuluh-puluh minggu mereka bertukar-tukar sms dan tazkirah
melalui email, akhirnya siswi tersebut bertunang dengan orang lain yang juga
satu “jemaah” dengan mereka.
Aduh..lagi hebat daripada filem “Love Story”
yang pernah popular di tahun-tahun 70’an dahulu. Yang pasti, sekali lagi
tema “ukhwah fillah” menjadi “camouflagde” ke atas perhubungan antara dua
jantina yang ada kesedaran Islam ini.

Dalam satu insiden yang lain pula, seorang siswi pernah meminta pendapat
penulis. Seorang seniornya yang sedang menuntut di dalam IPT yang sama
dengan beliau telah bersungguh-sungguh melamarnya. Walaupun telah ditolak
lebih 20 kali, namun si teruna terus melamarnya juga.Sekali lagi slogan
“ukhwah fillah” menjadi lapik dan dijadikan bahan ugutan. Jika si siswi
tadi menolak lamarannya, maka hatinya akan hancur, dan ia bertentangan denga
mafhum hadis tadi
. Oleh kerana bersimpati dengan si senior tersebut, si
siswi terpaksa menerima lamaran itu. Menarik bukan “trend” percintaan
golongan anta-anti ini.

Seorang siswa juga pernah meluahkan kemarahannya ke atas naqib usrahnya di
bilik penulis. Mengapa tidak, tatkala di dalam usrah, berkepul-kepul dalil
dan fikrah yang dibawanya. Sampaikan ketika pertukaran ke usrah lain, si
naqib meminta siswa tadi agar berbai’ah untuk kekal di dalam perjuangan dan
tidak menyertai jemaah lain. Sayangnya, di dalam perjalanan balik kampung,
siswa tersebut nampak sang naqib berjalan berpegangan tangan dengan naqibah
sekelas mereka..
.ini yang paling menarik.Lebih hebat lagi, kedua-dua mereka
lengkap dengan aksesori berkopiah dan bertudung litup. Jika di zaman 70’an
dahulu nescaya apa yang dilakukan oleh sang naqib dan naqibah tersebut bakal
menerima cop “kafir” dari pendukung gerakan dakwah yang lain.

Di satu sudut yang lain pula, seorang siswa yang sering menceritakan
kehebatan “Abuya”nya kepada penulis, juga tidak dapat lari dari fenomena
cinta anta-anti ini. Penulis amat kagum dengan siswa yang sering muncul
dengan baju Melayu berkancing dan juga songkok berwarna-warninya ini.
Matanya yang bercelak sahaja sudah cukup untuk rakan-rakan yang lain hormat
kepada beliau. Sayangnya atas takdir Allah, ketika penulis berkunjung untuk
menziarahi beliau, penulis ternampak gambar seorang Muslimah menghiasi
desktop komputer peribadinya
. Ditanyakan sama ada itu adik, kakak ataupun
emaknya atau mungkin neneknya, beliau menafikan. Beliau terpaksa mengaku
bahawa itu adalah “kawan”nya. Yang hebatnya,
tertulis di sebelah keayuan wajah gadis tersebut “ukhwah fillah membawa ke
Jannah”.

Persoalannya, adakah fenomena ini sihat? Adakah ia sudah cukup islamik? Atau
penulis yang ketinggalan zaman sehingga naif terhadap trend muda mudi masa
kini? Ataupun fiqh Islamiyy juga perlu diubahkan untuk disesuaikan dengan
perubahan semasa
. Di dalam artikel yang terhad ini, penulis tidak berhajat
untuk memberikan hukuman mahupun pandangan terhadap fenomena yang menarik
ini. Biarlah para pembaca membuat penilaian mereka terhadap “sihat” atau
tidak sihatnya budaya ini. Semoaga ada di kalangan pembaca yang akan dapat
memberikan pandangan yang rasional serta boleh diwacanakan.

Wallahu’alam..

 
 
 
 
ukht: AiyooO.. keadaan yang sungguh menyedihkan 😦 kejahilan dalam agama dan mengikut nafsu semata-mata telah mengaburi mata manusia dalam membezakan yang baik dan buruk.. Semoga Allah mengampuni kite semua ehh? 😥